Monday, January 10
bella tan is dead.these days had been totally horrible and awful.he had left me..after all those promises that he'd made to me.after all that he'd said..after he'd said that he'll love me forever..101111-9:24pm..my heart thudded a broken metre.i cant help it but smile whenver i re-read the messages he used to send me.there's no remedy for love but to love more.where are all those secure hugs? all those wishful thoughts are all gone..where is the you whom i know? th one who would never hurt me..the one who would only love me,care for me,sayang me..never bully me,never scold me,never be fierce to me..the one who'd lend me his shoulder whenever i'm tired,for me lean on and sleep..the one who's the first to text me good morning and give me morning call.the one who says goodnight to me..the one who come and find me early in the morning and snore like a big fat pig when he sleep..baby,where are you? where've you been?the guy who is a subsitute of you now is too fake! i know you'd never bully melike the way he does..i know you'll never hurt me..i know you love me..this guy is so much like you.even his looks is exactly the same..baby,faster come back..i'll be waiting for you..i dont like this current one who ignores my message and say hurting words!i hate to admit this but yes,i feel so numbed and part of me died.i feel so damn fake to this world like a deadly creature..i coulnt do anything but keep myslef busy,keep my mind filled so that it would lessen the times he cross it.
Monday, January 10, 2011
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