Friday, February 11
Been so long since i last blogged. So many things happened. And here i am, giving a summary. LOL .__________________.
Yes, you're not returning to me anymore..you dont know how much that hurts. From minimum feelings and zero trust, you made me went back to 100% LOVE and COMPLETE trust. And when i finally decide to be with you, to love you, cherish you, take good care of you, you tell me you dont love me anymore.
6 months of feelings with 2 months of you waiting, telling me how much you love me every single day when you waited, it made me so touched that i brought myself back to you, though you hurt me a billion times. You told me you'd changed and wont return back to your old ways, you wont hurt me, and you said that if i ever give you a chance to love me properly, you'll cherish me properly,and sacrifice more time for me.
Now..this is what you give me? Is this love? ITS NOT..i cannot stand this, you know?! You know how much it hurts?! I wont blame you but..stand in my shoes please..for you, i fell out with my friends..i dont feel the soul in my anymore. Its purely an empty shell. From now on, i'll bottle everything in me..the feeling of being kicked when you're down..when nothing you do is right,when nothing you do is right, when you gotta wear a mask and not taking it down, having 'bruises' in you all the time..that's my life..
Dont bother saying sorry, it doesnt make a difference.. i dont feel anything anymore. This is me..BELLA TAN.
Friday, February 11, 2011
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