Pleasure of love last but a moment,Pain of love,last a lifetime♥

2011-02-11T08:16:00.000-08:00

Been so long since i last blogged. So many things happened. And here i am, giving a summary. LOL .__________________.
Yes, you're not returning to me anymore..you dont know how much that hurts. From minimum feelings and zero trust, you made me went back to 100% LOVE and COMPLETE trust. And when i finally decide to be with you, to love you, cherish you, take good care of you, you tell me you dont love me anymore.
6 months of feelings with 2 months of you waiting, telling me how much you love me every single day when you waited, it made me so touched that i brought myself back to you, though you hurt me a billion times. You told me you'd changed and wont return back to your old ways, you wont hurt me, and you said that if i ever give you a chance to love me properly, you'll cherish me properly,and sacrifice more time for me.
Now..this is what you give me? Is this love? ITS NOT..i cannot stand this, you know?! You know how much it hurts?! I wont blame you but..stand in my shoes please..for you, i fell out with my friends..i dont feel the soul in my anymore. Its purely an empty shell. From now on, i'll bottle everything in me..the feeling of being kicked when you're down..when nothing you do is right,when nothing you do is right, when you gotta wear a mask and not taking it down, having 'bruises' in you all the time..that's my life..
Dont bother saying sorry, it doesnt make a difference.. i dont feel anything anymore. This is me..BELLA TAN.

2011-01-27T15:59:00.000-08:00

No matter what, I'm willing to wait. Please don't dash my hopes..I'll wait for you. I don't believe that you're really so heartless. No matter how you treat me, how much you hurt me, you'll always be the one that's living in my hear..the one that Bella tan si Qi loves. I love you forever..I just wish that you're willing to give me 1 more chance..to love you, care for you, be there for you when you need me, be the first to rush out when you need me, be the first to text you good morning and the last to say good night to you, be the one who listen to all your problems, the one whom you vent your anger on, the one that feels that you're the best in the wholewide world, the one that will love you and never hurt you anymore.
I hope you'll read this and just give me one more chance. I just want a chance to love you..

2011-01-16T18:32:00.000-08:00

having mrs lai's lesson now -.- zzzzzz -.- I'm totally falling asleep *yawns* gosh...she'd been going on and on and on since 9.50 -.- ermmmmmmmm,this is random but...............I LOVE DEBBIE SOON,JOVONNE CHUA,ZHOU LI JING and CHERYL TAN <3 ><
Hmmmmmm,ALL THE BEST to all volleyball Bgirls for their South zone today!!!! Jiayous!!!!!! Queensway ace!!!!! :D

2011-01-10T20:50:00.000-08:00

bella tan is dead.
these days had been totally horrible and awful.he had left me..after all those promises that he'd made to me.after all that he'd said..after he'd said that he'll love me forever..101111-9:24pm..

my heart thudded a broken metre.i cant help it but smile whenver i re-read the messages he used to send me.there's no remedy for love but to love more.where are all those secure hugs? all those wishful thoughts are all gone..
where is the you whom i know? th one who would never hurt me..the one who would only love me,care for me,sayang me..never bully me,never scold me,never be fierce to me..the one who'd lend me his shoulder whenever i'm tired,for me lean on and sleep..the one who's the first to text me good morning and give me morning call.the one who says goodnight to me..the one who come and find me early in the morning and snore like a big fat pig when he sleep..
baby,where are you? where've you been?
the guy who is a subsitute of you now is too fake! i know you'd never bully me
like the way he does..i know you'll never hurt me..i know you love me..this guy is so much like you.even his looks is exactly the same..baby,faster come back..i'll be waiting for you..i dont like this current one who ignores my message and say hurting words!

i hate to admit this but yes,i feel so numbed and part of me died.i feel so damn fake to this world like a deadly creature..i coulnt do anything but keep myslef busy,keep my mind filled so that it would lessen the times he cross it.

2010-12-19T07:20:00.000-08:00

bored ttmx at home these days :( totally miss those days in China :'( the wonderful weather..(Y)(Y) gosh..i'm starting to realise that i've lesser and lesser to post as my days are getting more and more BORINGGGGG!!! ahhhhhh! i believe my blog is gonna be dead soon :( real dead :/

2010-12-14T05:17:00.000-08:00

BACK FROM CHINA!!!!!!!!!!! :D the trip was really awesome ^^ awesome weather of 8degrees in the morning(: awesome friends and roommates(: awesome fooooood(: EVERYTHING IS SIMPLY AWESOME!!!! :D weeeeeee~ will update more bout it soon(: currently feeling rather LAZYYYYYYYYYY ><

2010-12-03T20:26:00.000-08:00

sometimes i just hope that you'd spare a thought for others.i wonder at times if you do treat me as a friend..i'm tired of sparing a thought for you all the times.when you're having a bad mood,you vent everything on me like nobody's business.when you dont need me,you push me aside,ignore me,show me attitude,happyhappy scold me and treat me like a dog.but when you need me? you just put on a mask and treat me damn nice..and when you treat me nicely,i take all those as true friendship.
once a friend,forever a friend..i'll continue treating you as a good friend of mine..i'll wait for th day you notice my presence again.perhaps the day wouldnt come so soon but..i'm willing to wait cos you're my friend(:
i'll still be a happy girl :D or at least try to look like one(:

2010-12-01T06:09:00.000-08:00

YOU'RE DAMN BITCHY! YOU'RE DAMN BITCHY! YOU'RE DAMN BITCHY! YOU'RE DAMN BITCHY! YOU'RE DAMN BITCHY1 YOU'RE DAMN BITCHY! YOU'RE DAMN BITCHY! YOU'RE DAMN BITCHY! YOU'RE DAMN BITCHY! YOU'RE DAMN BITCHY! damn you luhh! i dont know what's the problem with you sia! you better make sure you dont make me angry.dont think you're my senior,i'll shut up and let you bitch around..sorry hor,i'm not that kind of person.my patience got limit de okay? i'll bear with your nonsense now..but i cant guarantee i will,the next time round.if i dont,then i'll just say..sorry hor..i'll make sure we wont talk anymore.

2010-11-19T21:56:00.000-08:00

woke up with a flu this morning ): kinda quarrelled with dad yesterday -.- quarrelled cos of handphone again -.- gave in to him,didnt wanna argue :/ i still feel that he's kinda unreasonable lorhs ): i totally dont get it why i cant have my phone with me in the room? got problem uhhh? why must i leave my phone in the living room everyday? i leave it there,my phone vibrate cos got of messages,you scold me? i reply messages,you also scold me? what the hell you want me to do? okay luhhh! i leave it there luhhh! okay?! fine?! you happy liao luhhh! ! >:(

2010-11-17T06:02:00.000-08:00

seldom use comp lately ): kinda lazy to update blog :X bleah~ accompany-ing mummy to NUH tomorrow..follow by training on Fri(: *wonders who's the coach on Fri* hmmm,nothing much to post :X hmmmm,totally hate my comp nowadays :/ lagg ttm siol!!! GRRRRR! :@ @#$%^&*# kekeke~ ><
bibi having sore throat ): hais..see luhhhh! yesterday still tell me you 2years never sick le,today jiu sick ): must takecare and drink plenty of water uhhh! ):

2010-11-08T16:16:00.000-08:00

sometimes i really wonder what have i done wrong? why cant you people just find things out properly before commenting? why cant you just spare a thought for others? i would rather you confront me face to face than backstab me this way.even if you'd to hate me,at least give me a reason right? i totally give up..i'm tired of waking up every morning,thinking on how to settle things...still telling him not to hurt you.and this is what i get back in return? i dont ask for anything but why must you do this to me?

2010-11-04T08:50:00.000-07:00

hate waking up these few days ): i just wanna sleeeep and sleeeeep and sleeeep like a dead log.i just dont wanna wake up :/ having to deal with such things had been a real headache ): i hope things would really be fine soon :/ sunshine after the rain ^^ everything will soon be over..

2010-10-26T07:09:00.000-07:00

my mood is really awesome lately ^^ i'd learn to take things in a positive way and realised that at times,its best not to know the truth :X hahahas ><
WOWWOWOWOW~~~ time really pass so quickly,especially this year :O its a extremely fast-forward year and before we could look back at the mistakes we'd committed,its already the end of the year! ><
i'm so gonna remind myself to study hard next year!! i dont wanna panic after exams again..the feelings really sucks to the core :X

2010-10-23T22:44:00.000-07:00

(: comp finally repaired,can update blog lerhs(: had vollyball training yesterday,back,neck and arms aching like siao now -.- zzzz..hope it would get better tomorrow(: tomorrow got friendly match..C-girls,jiayou orh!!! ^^

2010-10-20T18:15:00.000-07:00

Lalalalalala~ slacking in school currently..results came out on mon..it sucks ttm ): hais... Fifah's iPod doesn't like me :( wanted to post a long entry but something went wrong :( deletes th entire entry :( hais...will post again soon(:

2010-10-15T04:40:00.000-07:00

hmmmm,i bet i screwed math today -.- thought i'll leave alot of questions blank,that's why took my own sweet time to answer the first few questions..in the end,the paper turned out to be rather easy BUT i kinda couldnt finish the paper in time -.- zzzzz...didnt finish graph -.- lol,epic fail -.- as per usual,th post would be damndamn emo again -.- quarrelled with parents AGAIN -.- not surprising..hais...i really dont get it..they give me unlimited sms but dont let me send =.= whatthefuck is this? i can stand it anymore..life is just so damn miserable..everyday,i dont know what i'm living for..i dont know what's the aim in my life..i'm just moving on blindly without anything...i dont like this! today last paper le,i asked for permission to play volleyball..i wanted to go home at 1plus,you said no and want me to REACH home by 1plus..exams are over,what do you want me to do? you tell me go home so early,i'm just facing the 4walls at home..hais..i bet the next month when my phone bill comes,you're just gonna kill me..why? cos you dont allow me to text then,i'll make calls..whatever~! i'm not gonna give a damn bout it anymore..

2010-10-12T07:07:00.001-07:00

O.o i'm in a dilemma..hmmmm,what should i do? haissss,damn complicated :/ i'm gonna focus on studies now and only think bout others things after exams(: i bet i screwed Literature today -.- when people had only completed 1/2 the paper,debb and i are already lying our heads on the table,falling asleeeep -.- lol,shouldnt have spoke to her on the phone the previous night ><
i miss you...

2010-10-11T06:36:00.001-07:00

today's geog paper was better than usual(: probably cos i studied for it :X hahahas ^^ tomorrow's lit paper,i'm so gonna DIE ): lost my lit book,never study TOTALLY -.- hope tomorrow morning,jie pass me book le,can read ^^ all thanks to jie(: if not,i think i wont be able to survive :D i love you ttm jie! ♥♥♥

2010-10-09T22:20:00.000-07:00

6 days had passed after our official break..everything seemed to be soooo long.though 6days had already passed but,my heart is still feeling as terrible as day 1.you still remember this message that you sent me? (: muacks ,wanna melt your heart again...hmmm,bi...i love you alotalot..i really wish i can be by your side every moment to protect you from everything.the rain.the wind.the storms.i would hold your hand and walk the journey with you...bella...i love you... do you still remember? and this: bella...i love you forever..i love you alotalot darling..too bad that we cant be together all the time..i believe fate has brought us together so yeah..i will cherish you..you...forgot lerh mahrs?

2010-10-09T21:59:00.000-07:00

nowadays,i realised that home is just a place for me to sleep.no one ever bothered bout my presence..when i'm studying,you scold me..what have i done wrong yesterday?all i want is to copy notes from my friends and study?why did i have to get scolded? you all went out,and told me to go home earlier..i listened and reached home at 5.30plus.thought you will buy dinner for me so,didnt eat before going home,if not...i'll be home late..waited and waited..you only came home at 11.30..thought you will buy some food for me at least but? you came home empty-handed..i chose to save $$ and eat only a little during lunch cos you told me that your salary was reduced.i saved the $$ and wanted to use it for mon's allowance..hais,in the end,went hungry..ran out of food at home..nothing to eat ): today woke up,stomach grumble..no breakfast,hais..lunch,you ask me go out and eat,i dont want cos i wanna study..you simply say okay and left..i know you wont be back till late at night..hais..but i got used to all these le :/ i no longer feel hungry..what i feel is just..PURE EMPTINESS in my heart.. baby left me,and you are treating me like this..no one will bother bout my presence..whether i'm dead or alive,its nobody's business..bi,i miss you badly..i really need you..if one day,i'm not here anymore,i hope you'll miss me...

2010-10-08T06:33:00.000-07:00

sec 4s graduated le ): gonna miss alot of people..my vball seniors esp! ): though i'm not quite familiar with Irham and Bryan,but i dont know why,in my heart,there's sad feelings..sad that they're gonna leave sch :/ probably cos i got influenced by Jov and Debb :/ hais..today,see Jov and Debb cry so much,killed thousands of my brain cells by thinking on how to comfort them..feel quite awful when i see them like that..but..still cannot make it..in the end? they made me cry together -.- i didnt cry for seniors :/ but i cried for him :/ Debb and Jov keep metioning that everything will only become part of their memories and blahblahblah~ made me think of so many things that happened..from the day me and him met,till the day we broke..everything just came flowing in my mind and my tears just keep falling :/ i hate this feeling,hais..its horrible..crying yourself to sleep every night..stopping your mind from thinking about cutting yourself..hais,its terrible..God,i know you're making me learn something(: i will keep on trying till the day,i can shout out loud: I LET GO LE!

2010-10-07T09:25:00.001-07:00

In my heart,there's only these three words for you that will never change...

i love you♥

2010-10-07T08:38:00.000-07:00

I am a disappointment. That's my life. I am a loser in every way,just that useless. One day when it's time, the light will bring me away. Somehow, It hurt so much that you don't even wanna try. I can't keep pretending.Ya, I am living with a brokenheart.But who understands? Who knows? How do you feel? I bet you don't even feel a thing isn't it? I dont get it why must you keep hurting me non-stop? Hadnt i'd been hurt enough? Everything is too much..i'm gonna collapse soon.the pain is aching in my heart every single day i see you..everyday i ask god why is he punishing me this way...if his purpose is to let me learn something,why am i learning in such a hard way? i would rather inflict the pain physically, rather than having the pain in my heart throbbing so painfully everyday..i'm trying hard to let go,everyday i'm trying..Dear god, The only thing I ask of you, is just to let me have this chance and move on. A chance for me, this time i have to move on. I promise, i'll change..may my apology be accepted. Amen.

2010-10-04T07:28:00.001-07:00

people might think why i'm so despo for you..i dont know.if you dont love me,just gently let me know? at times,i hope you would just say it straight in my face..let me totally understand everything..i love you..yes..it just dont change..you'd hurt me,yes,but i still love you..it had never decrease a single bit..i crying every single night..hoping someone would really comfort me,but i dont know who can..i dont believe you changed..until today,i believe you still will change for the better.you're not a jerk.nevermind..i cant get you back anymore.i give up..you'll a;ways have my heart..

2010-10-04T07:11:00.000-07:00

today,finally said things out..just realised you'd so much in your heart that you didnt tell me.i hope you know that i'm trying hard,really..all of these is my fault,right? sorry..i just realised my wrong..these few days hed been hell for me..be it attending school or not,its awful..i carry hopes just to have a glance of you during recess..and really,my heart was contented..after hearing what you told me on fri,i was worried for you..and till today,this very moment,i'm still worrying..hope you dont get accused..i know i'm not your anybody now,i have totally no right to care..no right to know..i'm not a stalker or whatever..but things just happened to let me know.i bet you hate me or what..i wont say anything.i'm just a bitch or whatever you may call me now..but..i love you.

2010-10-03T01:50:00.000-07:00

having extreme headache now :/ everything seems to be just too much for me to handle.my heart felt totally numb and have no feelings at all anymore..its doesnt hurt or anything but..my tears just keep falling..i just cant accept the cruel fact.baby,where are you?

2010-09-30T05:35:00.000-07:00

i think i got abit crazy today :x wrote too much for paper 1 -.- Mt paper used 2pieces of chinese compo paper.English compo and letter both wrote 400+ words -.- lol? what's the problem with me...write so much? -.-
recently,i realised things had changed quite abit.it's just kinda different.it isnt the way it should be anymore.everything just changed :/ maybe this change is good? i dont know...but nevermind,i'll carry on as per usual,hope the big gap would close up soon.someone asked me a question today,why you two see each other in school,behave like strangers like that?this simple yet complex question,set me thinking for so long..why? i ask myself :/ and until now,i have still yet to get the answer..

2010-09-29T06:03:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna sleeep earlyearly tonight(: i got all ready for tomorrow's English and Mt paper 1(: jiayoujiayou bellatan! :D

2010-09-27T06:19:00.000-07:00

weeee~ good news came(: but..is it really good news? or just the fine weather before a ferocious storm? O.o i'm not gonna think too into it anymore :/ i guess,i'll just let things go according to how it should be(: i strongly believes that since fate brought us together,we ought to cherish this little opportunity..its not easy to be in the same school...hard to get know each other out of an entire school population and even so much harder,to find something common with each other and develop a 'more-than-a-good-friend' feeling(:

2010-09-27T06:10:00.000-07:00

everything's over? 167days of being together with you,just end here? i always thought that our love is strong but..it seemed to proved to me that its actually extremely vulnerable and fragile.i admit that i'm heartbroken and all sorts of feelings just came into me except for my best friend,happiness.she'd left me,suffering here...leaving me to heal alone.i know she's never coming back to me..at least for the time being..why? why did you do this to me? what have i done wrong?

2010-09-24T04:39:00.000-07:00

i realised i'd lost you..i may have you physically,but i know,your heart is no longer here.....maybe to you,i'm thinking too much and i hope i am too but,it doesnt seem to be,right? i thought i was the only one that felt that way,but i found out that others had also noted the difference.what happened today,had proved me right too....nevermind,its up to you to decide..i'll respect whatever decision you make.i'll just hope you remember I L♥VE YOU FOREVER

2010-09-21T05:43:00.001-07:00

DBL♥ weee~ hahas :D all the random pics we take during lesson time :P wakaka~

♥♥♥♥♥

2010-09-21T05:33:00.000-07:00

(: sunshine after the rain! :D these few days had been rather okay(: except for 1 idiotic thing -.- my fringe!!!!!! argh! -.- its super duper uper ugly ): the bangs were terrible -.- nevermind..they'll grow longlong and LONG soon ^^ hehehehe(: bibi,contact me soon alright? (: you entire day never contact me,i quite worried worhs :x hope tomorrow when i switch on my phone,it would vibrate(:

more and more...when are all these gonna stop...

2010-09-20T05:53:00.000-07:00

hais...got slapped by my mum yesterday ): dont wanna mention reason down here :/ i'm gonna be good,i'll try(: nothing much to post..will post again soon bahrs ^^

family? him♥?

2010-09-19T01:40:00.000-07:00

so many things had been happening lately ): firstly,i lost my phone..cos of that,quarrelled with parents..secondly,wore contacts that day and left my spects in school ): went home got scolded like shit..dad threw my contacts away ): quarrelled again..this morning,my phone bill came..though i had unlimited sms but bill showed that i'd used 3498messages..got scolded again ): results slip,failed 4subjects..parents refuses to sign and gave me lots of stress..and worst of all,kinda quarrel with him♥ that day...i dont know what's going on ): everything just seemed to be wrong ): i cant stand this any longer..i hate this home..i hate this family..i hate everything..do you all know how much tears i'd been crying out lately? i cried everyday..but yet? no-one bother..no one care..no one give a fucking damn about me...i hope to get some encouragement from you and i'll probably put in more effort to study..but where's all the encouragement i'd been longing for??? all you do is scold and scold and scold?! why cant you just shutup?! i had enough..i'm not gonna give a damn bout anything you say..i'm just gonna heck care bout it....bi..i promise you that i'll not cut myself but now......i cant gurantee..if i cant stand and cut myself again,i hope you wont blame me...

♥

2010-09-14T04:47:00.001-07:00

PHONE??? where are you ):

2010-09-14T04:25:00.000-07:00

my dear phone..where on this earth are you???? please return to my side..i promise i'll treat you well..where are you~
damn lahrs..lost my phone after PE today -.- super xiasuey ): didnt know why i'm so dumb to leave my phone on in girls toilet after changing-.- stuuupid! in the end? lost my phone ): dad doesnt want to get my sim from starhub ): he said that even if he does,he's not gonna let me use it anymore -.- wtf? getting damn pissed by them -.- dad shouted at me cos i showed attitude..but he's the one that started all the nonsense?! wtf...

2010-09-09T06:00:00.000-07:00

chionging for geog,history,literature and math lately :/ shoudnt have slacked so much this year ): hais..geog,maybe can make it..history,need ti borrow notes :/ math..hais..DIE LA! -.- i totally know nuts about it -.- hais..totally BLANK -.- hais.. hoping to cope with my emotions properly this few days..dont wanna anyhow think..hais...just hope things would go smoothly..

School Holidays :/

2010-09-04T23:21:00.000-07:00

O.o had been looking forward to the sept school hols like dont know since when :p waited so long just for today and in the end? 1 week hols,need to go back 4days for training -.- hais...but nevermind,i'll take this time to brush up my skills..the next Queenscup,i really wanna play!!! ): hais yesterday was a really unbearable day...thought of alot of things and yeah..ended up crying.hais...i promised him that i'll change for him.i hope that i can do it(: woo~ i'm looking forward to Friday!!! yipee~ hope everything would go smoothly(:
will post again soon :D

(:

2010-08-30T07:22:00.000-07:00

(: will be going back juying tomorrow! ^^ yay! its had been long since i last stepped into juying...i guess i gotta recollect some wonderful memories >.<

family or not?

2010-08-25T04:51:00.000-07:00

sometimes i'll tend to think to myself,do you respect me for who i am? at times i seriously feel that i'm not part of the family...i know i did something wrong but you dont have to do this to me right? do you know how much your words could hurt me? i'm sorry for what happened,but why do you have to do all these? i've already tried my bast to listen to you,obey whatever you say.i cant go out with my friends,i cant go my friends' houses and i cant slack around with my friends.what else you expect from me? why must you go to such extreme? cant i just have some privacy of my own?

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2010-08-12T05:29:00.000-07:00

我的心好烦...i dont wanna think anymore but..i just cant stop myself from getting deeper and deeper in thought...i dont know what i'm bothering myself with -.- may i have the permission to cry..to cry everything out? ): i sad,i dont deny that...i wanna close my eyes and let everything pass.tomorrow would be a brand new day,everything would start all over again.it would be just like a piece of clean and blank paper...but behind it,there are actually still traces of pencil markings which everyone wouldnt notice...

^^

2010-08-11T22:27:00.000-07:00

kekeke~ posting blogpost during IT lesson :P seriously nothing better to do after completing the surveys(: so took time to revive my blog >.< grrr! hmt and geography results were relesed -.- hais...failed with flying colours,lol -.- hmt: 18/60!! WTH?!?!?!?! (didnt complete paper in time cos we were late for class? :/) geography: 15.5/35 (hais....nothing to say -.-)
post again nextt ime bahrs ^^

i love you

2010-08-08T21:31:00.000-07:00

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ba0beii

2010-07-30T07:12:00.001-07:00

argh!!! today dont know is what kind of day...miss him like siao -.- have no idea why also ): just keep on thinking bout him,missing him ): heart felt so xinku ): hais......i'll be fine...i'll be fine.... baby,i love you.muacks.woaini♥

happyhappy

2010-07-25T06:30:00.000-07:00

:D hees,kinda happy today(: in the morning,went to jurong 500plus there,had a haircut :D mum did colour adn cut while i did some layered cutting? (: went jurong point after that,went to starhub,singtel and samsung..keep walking into those handphone shops w/o stopping,lol -.- leg almost broke >.< in the end,got a samsung jet with student plan,topup $28/-..rewindrewind abit...the reason why i need to go to so many handphones shops and keep walking till my legs almost broke is because........both my phone and my dad's phone is spoilt! lol -.- my dad keep using alcohol wipes to sanitize his phone (i dont see any point in that -.-) while i did an even 'clever-er' thing...'treated' my phone to drink milo -.- argh! lol! my entire phone was thoroughly saoked in milo and the batt was wet totally,lol,so gotta get a new phone(: i was rather happy,hearing that i'm gonna get a new phone but in the end? the new phone was taken by my dad and i used the one and only spare phone at home -.- a super duper uper basic samsung phone -.- w/o bluetooth,lollollol -.- hais..i guess i've gotta bear with it and wait till my dad pass his phone to me -.- that will be a 2nd hand phone? or maybe a 3rd hand phone? -.-

grrrr!

2010-07-20T06:27:00.000-07:00

Grrrrrrr! can you all stop making me so damn confused?! i had finally just settled my heart down to allow myself to think wisely,and now,you told me another thing? wth.wth.wth.now,i gotta rethink the entire thing,grrrrr! i still dont get it..argh,forget it-.-

2010-07-17T07:56:00.001-07:00

finally,the hard times are over! both of us thrashed things out lerhs (somehow) i should be feeling better now(: thanks dear,i love you♥ nothing much to post actually..just came here to keep my blog alive? lol -.-
went to safra that day with lijing,cheryl kay & debbie.had fun there & seriously,not kidding at all,we did quite a number of stuuupid stuff down there.i dont wanna mention them :P
did some retarded rock-climbing there & realised i'm super bad at it -.- it turned out to be some kind of entertainment for the 3 of them.looking at me shouting & screaming when i just like about 1 feet or so above ground level -.-
grrrrrr! i know i'm bad at these kind of things,i myself admit it >.<

Guang Liang - Yue Ding | Commitment | 約定

2010-07-13T06:37:00.000-07:00

约定♥

please right-click and select 'show-all' screen is rather big :P

so long

2010-07-13T04:37:00.000-07:00

all because of my muscle ache,it screwed up my day! it should be an awesome day but all because you are causing my entire body to ache,i totally lost mood :/ cant slck around after school..cant seat and stand properly and somehow,cant walk properly -.- i getting pissed by you -.-

day-out

2010-07-10T23:01:00.000-07:00

went out with julie to tiong after volleyball yesterday.was rather tired at first but after slacking around and chit-chatting at kopitiam,i was all energetic again,all thanks to super julie! all i have to say is JULIE'S♥ AWESOME!!! :D h3h3h3

(:

2010-07-09T04:12:00.000-07:00

today went out with cheryl tan,lijing and baby♥ went to mac and did project there.hmmmmm,actually only cheryl and lijing did lahrs (i did abit :D),baby♥ and i were like *extras* down there -.- argh..was damn pissed by the three of them lahrs,tsktskstk.

:D

2010-07-06T04:42:00.000-07:00

woo~ changed blogskin(: so nice,h3h3h3 :P
today i'm in a perfect mood.hope no-one would spoil this thing :D

~

2010-07-04T00:38:00.000-07:00

eveything had been so wrong..so wrong.i'm at total loss now but what to do? am i in the wrong? i dont know,this is the first time we like that.i really dont know what to do...is it really my wrong...so many things happening all at one time,i really dont know how to accept.please someone,tell me what to do.
i've been crying the entire afternoon,do you know? nope
you're not the only one whose heart is broken,do you know? nope
i know when you need me,i'm always not there but do you know i feel damn awful? nope
nevermind...let's just give each other time to cool down,then make a wise decision.

eeeee

2010-06-19T06:16:00.000-07:00

waa,my blog seems so dead uhs? can i make a teeny weeny request?any passer-by,please do tagg at the chat box alright,thanks(:
hmmm,i guess i'll not be using comp that often anymore.mum's rather strict.yesterday's volleyball match with yuhua was rather good.though we lost but...nevermind,we did our best,maybe all of us are too nervous lerhs(: will be damn busy these few days.monday need train down to khatib mrt by 0830 and wed...(oops,i forgot what time?!) i just know that we'd need to go to presbyterian high.must jiayoujiayou and play the game well(: whole body aching like i've never exercise for ages when i'm training like 3x a week,argh.hmmm,nothing much to post lerhs.will post again next time(dont know when)

oh ya! i remembered something! THANK YOU BENNY!thank you so much for helping me that day,though we just met(: thank you so much.will text you as soon as i topup my low prepaid(:

monday!

2010-06-12T01:06:00.000-07:00

woo~ i'm looking forward to monday! MONDAY! MONDAY! MONDAY! :P

:((

2010-06-07T04:47:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm,today’s volleyball training went rather smoothly cos coach is in a good mood :P after training,went to Mac and had lunch with cheryl,phyllis,afifah & huisan(: *skip skip*
Today kinda miss him a lot.keep re-reading those messages that he sent to me :P I hope he’s doing well there,cant stop thinking and worrying bout him,aiyo :O
EEEE! gotta chiong finish my thick math assessment by the end of the month,ARGH! i guess I cant use comp anymore ): so pathetic! phone low prepaid & cant use comp! house phone also don’t allow me to use! MUMMY! How do you expect me to survive like that?! maybe you can but i simply cant.dont you feel that maybe you're controlling me abit too much?i can say that I’m seriously going crazy lerhs! @#$%^&*! :( :( :(
*ermmm,how am i gonna contact him♥? that's what i'm worrying bout actually :P

late

2010-06-05T08:55:00.000-07:00

its so late at night lerhs,12.02am.i still have no sense of tiredness.i only know that i'm missing him.he's leaving at 2.45am later and yet? i cant text him or answer his call! argh,i feel so awful,so horrible.these few days would be terrible for me.i still remember those days when he went to jakarta and i was missing him so much in school.now? its been so long since i last saw him and he's leaving again ): nevermind,he'll be back soon derhs..nevermind.

camwhore in library :P

2010-06-05T00:38:00.000-07:00

lijing and i (: lijing so chio right?! make dao i need to cover my face :P

hehes :D

2010-06-04T22:49:00.000-07:00

i'm so ridiculous yesterday.had totally no idea why i 胡思乱想,anyhow talk crap..tsktsk.i thought about it the entire night and finally when the clock struck 12am sharp,i kinda 'woke up'.i came to my senses! lol. i regretted what happened earlier yesterday.i'm so sorry.i know i've hurt you deeply by cutting the call.you're always the one that's tolerating my nonsense.i'm always so ridiculous,so 霸道,never consider your feelings.I'M SORRY JUNJIE! SORRY SORRY SORRY! ):
are you willing to forgive me ? dont angry with me okayokay? i promise you that there will be no more next time lerhs...dont anyhow think alright? i ♥ you.muacks

): broken hearted

2010-06-04T07:33:00.000-07:00

i seriously dont know what to say after what happened just now.i hope you dont see this post cos...i dont want you to know that i'm feeling down.my heart is breaking into pieces and my tears just cant stop flowing down.my heart ache as if it had shattered into millions of pieces but,do you know?i would rather you dont.we're drifting apart,arent we?you have been thinking alot and i am too.when i said those words,i dont really mean it that way,argh.maybe you dont know,but your words just cant stop repeating itself in my mind.even the smallest detail that you might not realise that you've said.its not that i dont love you or what but...maybe i just love you too much.i take every single word of yours into my heart and sort it out properly.are you in a bad mood or something? i dont know. i simply cant stop crying,cant stop.i'm missing you terribly but when we talked today,everything doesnt seems right.nevermind,nevermind.maybe i shouldnt have made that first phone call? i dont know..i dont know.but no matter what,i'll still repeat the same old words,i'll never ever regret every single thing i had done with you.NEVER.
if you do see this post,just treat as though you've never seen it.DONT take it to heart.i just need somewhere to say everything out.you've already done too much for me & i appreciate them,i'll learn to cherish those times together with you.
have fun in cambodia.enjoy & takecares.ily,imy.

♥♥

2010-06-02T07:50:00.000-07:00

i'm missing you so much.
did you take good care of yourself?
i hope you did(:
have been thinking so much these few days.
missing you even more.
maybe doing other stuff might make me think less bout you.
but everything would be back to square one in the end.
junjie,i love you.i love you.i love you.want you by my side♥

brand new day(:

2010-06-02T05:37:00.000-07:00

slacked around with lijing and cheryl at queenstown library.wanted to do mr ma's project but in the end? did nothing cos debbie went home after girl guides meeting.hmmmm,should i write out what we did for the entire day?? well,it gonna be long i guess :P

1100am: meet lijing at chij bus-stop.okay,i admit.i was LATE,sorry jingjing ): went to qss,to get the book review worksheet & to see someone :P
1130am: left school after much 'dilly-dally' and met chery at hawker.ate breakfast there.(or should i say brunch??)
1200pm-1plusplus:were at library,slacking.being hyper and doing all sorts of stupid stuff :D
2.30pm: went down to eat.WOW..spent quite alot of $$ there.hmmmm,we ate onion rings,mushroom and cheese sandwich & oreo cheesecake.yummy!
2.50pm:walked to 7-eleven cos lijing wanted to eat instant noodles(:
3.15pm:slacked back library cos there's no where else to go.dad's picking me up there at 5pm ):
3.30-5.00pm:were back at library.sat with xiao di di and xiao mei mei at the first storey.saw a caucasian girlgirl,so cute! i miss being a small kid when i just need to learn counting 123.hmmmm,then did all sort of stuff with lijing,eg: read a book together? stared at magazines together and telling each other which and which is nice,lol.went home after that.

interesting? would be better if i upload the photos we took together.hais,my phone cant upload so..would be waiting for cheryl to tagg me those photos in facebook then will upload it here! :D

WOW

2010-05-31T09:36:00.000-07:00

woah..it has been long since i last used the comp till so late at night.too many things had happened,cant fall asleep.couldnt venture into my lala~land.hmmm,i came across some ♥ quotes that make some sense so..decided to post them(:

-at night when im lonely, im all alone, looking at the wall just beside my bed, hugging my pillow tightly, i realised i really, really miss you. And at times..i do wonder, if you are thinking about me as much as i am thinking about you. There's so much left unsaid. The sun will rise, but night will soon fall again.

-the hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.

-friends will keep you sane, Love could fill your heart, A lover can warm your bed, But lonely is the soul without a mate.

-i believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

-they say loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices But I'll rather take pains and lots of sacrifices than not to be love by you.

-love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same.

hmmmm,does it make sense? well,it does..to me at least :P

wtf?

2010-05-31T06:44:00.000-07:00

ARGH..i feeling awful now.had never been feeling so awful before! ahhhhh! just received a news that i dont wanna hear ever again.grandma is having freaking HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE and is going to the hospital! wth?! recently,everyone in my entire family seems to be always in and out of the hospital,why? why? why? first is mum,then is aunt..now is grandma! i really hope that everyone's gonna be okay.i desperately needs someone to talk to but..where are those people that could lend me a helping hand? my "long-term" listener is away for a camp and i really hope that he's here.hais...i'm gonna go crazy sooner or later..one thing had just been settled and now,another thing starts.everything seems to go on and on...if its things that are good,i seriously dont mind but...why are all this happening?! i dont want any of my family memeber to be in such awful situation where one enters into the hospital after another...
God,i wanna cry.i wanna cry till my heart content.i wanna forget about everything and hope that its all a nightmare and none of this is reality..

心好烦啊!怎么办?!

:(

2010-05-31T04:55:00.000-07:00

bored..have quite a number of things to post.dont know where to start from -.-

1) my chocolate died: hais..alot of things had been happening recently.my poor hamster died of old age (i guess!) i miss it damn much..chocolate..chocolate...i still remember the days when i first brought him home.he's freaking skinny,head big,body small.now..super duber FAT..high in cholestrol,LOL.cried the entire day but managed to stop at around mid-afternoon.the moment i stopped crying,my mum start to "turn on HER tap" then made me cry all over again.finally,dad came home and brought chocolate to the mount faber hill and buried it.poor chocolate..i really miss those days where i could tickle your stomach,feed you sunflower seeds but now...hais..

2) changing of CCA: hais..gonna change CCA soon,*sobs.due to some stupid reason,i gotta quit volleyball,AHHHH,so sad!wasted 1/2year training for volleyball and now... hais,dont wanna say lerhs ): probably changing to sjab.but there's a reason to be happy for if i join sjab but..dont wanna share :P it a SECRET,lol

3) i'm GROUNDED: hais..i kinda got grounded..just like lijing ): parents were rather strict recently,for no reason.just suddenly like that and..i did nothing wrong?! hais..they always like that derhs,who can i blame??

4) results: i had made my decision..i'm gonna work double,triple hard for my EOY.jiayous for myself!
eng: A2
math:C6 /D7 (oops! i know i cant get good grades for this -.-)
science (bio & physics):A2 (need someone to tutor me :P)
hmt: B3
geography:B4
history:B4
literature:B4
home econs:A1
dnt:B3
etc...
Hmmmm,it seems quite hards uhs? but nevermind..i'm DETERMINED! jiayous bellatan♥!

hais...

2010-05-28T06:41:00.000-07:00

i hope yiyi is okay.she has been drinking heavily recently.everyday use alcohol to drown her sorrows,hais...i hope she would be fine soon.i wushed that i could help but,i dont know what's happening,so,how to help?! my mum told me that we should all go to yiyi's house and drink with her.than my dad said that i would been even more 醉 than her,hahas :P
i hope she would 看开一点, though i dont know what's happening =.= my parents have been chiong-ing to her house every day cos my yi zhang needs help.he say he dont know how to "settle" my aunt.zzz,lol,you cannot settle then need people help you settle is it? people not your 24/7 maid okays?! not everytime on-call derh hor..you want them come jiu come,want them go jiu go..make dao my parents yesterday night 2am plusplus then come home..hais..today on-call them again..everytime like that..it has already carried on for 4-5days liao,how you want settle?? hais..i also cannot say much cos..i dont know what's happening..i just know..its partially your fault,yi zhang! TSK-TSK

nothing lasts forever♥

2010-05-26T07:07:00.000-07:00

i'm feelin' so weird suddenly..kinda miss him alotalot.maybe because of what happened earlier with Sky,and he wasnt there with me.when he told me to say that to Sky,i was seriously thinking..are you sure you want me to ask? then i felt that he was really serious so..i asked.when Sky did all those things to me..i kinda already expect it lerhs.but...what else can i do? i didnt do anything..just stared at my phone and thought deeply to myself..is my safety important? i didnt expect him to tell me to ask Sky those questions..it was weird.i start to wonder,are we really suitable? you dont seems to know what i'm thinking and vice versa.so..is there any point to carry this relationship on if we dont seem to know each other well enough? we started way too early..we had only known each other for a short time and we came together.is it a wrong move? i hope it isnt..i will never regret those days with you..i chose the path myself.even if i'm hurt in the end,i wont blame anyone but..myself♥
but..i really hope that day wouldnt come♥
bellalovejunjie♥

=.=

2010-05-26T05:42:00.000-07:00

hais..just told my parents my results.they are utterly disappointed ): i'm disappointed with my own performance too,hais.i will work hard for my EOY derhs..i promise myself that..must work hardhard and score better then the present one...
damn it! tomorrow meet-the-parent..that's what i hate the most,ahhh! hope mdm soobern (dont know spell correct nnots) dont complain..she complain,i diedie ): i dont wanna die so early!
nevermind..i dont wanna think so much..die then..die lorhs!

♥ love junjie!

2010-05-24T05:52:00.000-07:00

yay! so happy to receive a wall post from you when i logged into facebook just now(: i guess i tonight no need sleep lerhs,think of you,then happy enough already :D i really super duper miss you like hell,cant wait for tomorrow! 14hours more to seeing you during recess..woo~ so happy.this 14hours would fly fastfast :P
i'm gonna sleep early tonight and the moment i open my eyes tomorrow...its a brand new day.and the difference between today and tomorrow is....my dear junjie is BACK!♥♥♥

2 more days...

2010-05-23T00:33:00.000-07:00

this few days are really unbearable..kinda miss you alot.at first,i thought school activities might drown away my thoughts but..i realised it cant.it seems to work the oppisite way.during recess-es,saw your friends.i dont know why but,i'll tend to think:maybe junjie is there.i know i'm kinda deceiving myself but..i hope that you're really there.but i know,you wouldnt be there derhs..you are at jakarta lei,how could you be in queensway?
every morning..on-ed my phone,hope to feel vibration but..for 4days lerhs,no vibration at all,hais.every night,before i sleep,tend to think about those things that we did together.the way i pushed you away and you held me tightly towards you.the way you smile.the way you pinched my nose..it all felt so sweet(: hug the pigpig every day,thinking whether you will be stroking the bearbear i gave you :P
2 more days jiu can see you lerhs,very look forward to tuesday(:
laogong(#^^#)i miss you.miss your hug;miss your kiss;miss the way you held my hand.muacks,i'll be waiting for your return :D

results!

2010-05-19T05:03:00.000-07:00

argh! today my results came out..they were "fantastic;boombastic" sia..all turned out like shiit!
eng w/o summary writing: 26/30
math:33/100
sci (bio & physics):47/100
hmt:113/200
home econs: 70.7%
history: i forgot!
geography: 26.5/100 ( something like that?! )
literature: 56/100

kanasai right?! ya..i know, no need say :P its worse than the brownbrown thing in the toilet bowl!

♥

2010-05-19T04:48:00.000-07:00

tomorrow you going jakarta lerhs..and yet,today,it seems to be not a very good day for the both of us.skipped lunch cos wanted to meet you asap but in the end,you had to meet teacher.stood at bus-stop waited for you for quite some time but,there's still no sight of you.message you,also never reply.waited and waited for an hour,feel damn pek chek.wanted to leave already.okay..i dont wanna say grandmother story here lahrs,aiyo =.='

gonna miss you lotslots ): hope you do takecare of yourself well in jakarta uhs,dont make me worried(: andand...i super love the pig you gave :P muacks,loveyou!

to: sky

2010-05-17T19:19:00.000-07:00

i know that its hard for you to get over me but,you really have to.you need to pull yourself strong..dont let yourself wallow in self-pity.你一定要振作起来,把过去放下,重新开始.you ought to find someone who's more worth your love.you're great but..我担当不起.forget about me,forget about the love we once had,forget about bella tan,the girl that hurt you deeply.find yourself another special someone that's worth your love.takecares(: sayang~

I'm not the leading girl in your life

2010-05-17T18:59:00.000-07:00

hais..didnt expect sky to come find me here at my house agin.thought he was joking last night but,he isnt! he really turned up! i couldnt let him stay outside,could i? even if i do,later i go out,he for sure follow derhs.so..should i let him in now? argh..xin fan sia...let him in sure damn weixian derhs...argh! just leave him outside lahrs,machiam i call him come.his's leg aching also his problem..

feeling so alone

2010-05-15T23:35:00.000-07:00

hais..no mood to post ): damn sians..post again next time(:

awful~

2010-05-14T04:03:00.000-07:00

argh! feel so fucking awful today.its our one month and it ended up like that?! what the hell...we only met for 15mins at tiong and that's it?! wanted to bring baby to my house but in the end..mum's at home? lol. made baby so disappointed.he had to go all the way home by himself ): i feel so bad and guilty..sorry baby ): reach home..forget remove my contacts! ahhh,what the fuck! mum saw and told dad when he came home.dad scolded me and said,"你要我把你的bag放在客厅then每天before上学check你bag是不是?" i felt damn pissed..why cant i have just abit of freedom! i dont wanna stay in my house anymore! i feel like 离家出走 sia..i dont wanna stay in a home that doesnt give me the feeling of home..which doesnt give me the feeling of love! argh...fuck la!

completed geog!

2010-05-07T23:59:00.000-07:00

hais..i gonna fail my geog like shiit ): i had so many empty blanks in it.i could only blame myself for not studying for it.section c...people uses at least 3 pieces of foolscape to complete it..i had only used 1 1/4,LOL..o-oh..die arh ): i'm gonna jiayou for the literature and HMT paper on mon! jiayous bella tan! :D

dead♥

2010-05-04T04:09:00.001-07:00

hey peeps(: it has been long since i lasted updated my blog.it seems so dead): so 'm here to revive it,hehes(: waa,in a blinking of an eye,its already mid-year lerhs.so fast having MYE liao,sians...just finished my eng and hmt paper 1 last wednesday,gonna have my geography paper this coming friday! what the hell..i dont really concentrate during geog lessons de lei..how?! hais....i'm gonna die ): mummy will kill me for sure if i fail it.got top in class for it the previous time is because i left my textbook open under my desk..all answers are from there! how..how..how!!!!! please pray for me ):

~

2010-04-15T04:04:00.000-07:00

today was quite a boriiiing day! nothing much had happened.woo~ tomorrow is speech day,though it doesnt really concerns me but..there's EARLY DISMISSAL! woo~LOL

2010-04-13T04:33:00.000-07:00

Picture taken at Singapore Poly (Audithorium!woo~)

♥ 13th birthday

2010-04-10T21:32:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the best birthday ever.celebrated with most of the 103 girls,woo~ thank you Ardina,kasumi and phyllis for the DOMO,i love it damn much,until now,i dont even bear to take off the wrapping paper:)♥ thank you lijing for the earring and card,so nice!!! gonna wear it very often!♥ thank you girls for singing the birthday song twice on the MRT and once in the audithorium♥ but...it was damn malu sia,hahas :x alot of ppl in the audithorium turned around and saw me "hiding" some of them sang and clapped along,hahas. but overall,THANK YOU!!!♥

bad mood

2010-03-25T05:06:00.000-07:00

hais..today,damn bad mood.if you want to lie to me,why not lie to me till the very end?! you noe thet i hate ppl who lie!why must you do this to me,very fun to toy with me is it?!

unwell ):

2010-03-23T04:51:00.000-07:00

today..had the feeling of being "trapped" by the school's activities.ended school at around 1.50pm and had to rush of to Delta swimming complex for the swimming course(together with gan eng seng pri de students.felt kinda malu,so old liao, still learn swimming,LOL?!)ended at 4.30pm sharp.
now,i'm feeling rather tired,worst of all,with cramps,WTH?! ):
will post again in the near future bahrs(:

♥

2010-03-14T05:01:00.000-07:00

what the hell?! i dont care whether you are any of those passerby-s but IHATEYOU..please stay away from my blog.since you dislike me so damn much then just dont view my blog at all,i dont have any spare time for such useless things and talking to idiots.AND...since you say that my command of english is poor then by all means prove that yours is better alright?! just leave my blog alone.

♥

2010-02-18T02:12:00.000-08:00

waa,i so long never update liao but....today kinda no mood,dont want to post,haish.post again in th near future:D

...

2010-01-30T03:40:00.000-08:00

waa,i so long bo post liao,busy moving house,until now still dont noe my computer in which box,in auntie house den can use.
in Queensway de days so BORED,almost everyday kana scold.STUPID mr MA,every lesson must tell ppl stand,so damn unreasonable,HATE HIM!!!mrs lai,everytime catch me out of class,tell me tuck in shirt,WTF?! ms sheryl kaur,-no comments- haish,that day pon lesson,so bad right but still kana found out but i diedie still dont want admit,mdm quah still cnt scold me cos' no evidence say i skip lessons,hahahas but,i scared liao,nxt time wont do it anymore.
that day quarrel with parents,they check my hp again?!i actually dont want quarrel with them but they so guailan,what to do?!my dad say he dont want say me liao,cos' say liao i also wont listen so...he wont care me anymore.DONT CARE DONT CARE LORHS!!!he dont care me,i happier,hahahas.
hmmmm,nothing much to post liao,will post again at a later date.

Oh....♥

2010-01-01T20:10:00.000-08:00

oh,gonna move house on the 6th of Jan,due to house renovating,i would be staying at my ahmah house for about 3-4days,haish.house num maybe will also change,so bad sia,guess i gonna lose contact with alot of ppl)):but nevermind,i change le house num,will update on blog,den....those who wanna contact me can still continue lor,hahahas=D
waa,so fast,still got 2days jiu start school lerhs,its like a big leap from pri to sec but its okay,guess i would adapt soonsoon!!!school kinda strict bt i would say i wouldnt care,very naughty horhs,heheh,LOL.
kkays lerhs,gonna end here,WISH EVERYONE WHO IS READING THIS POST,HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!aLL tHe bEsT tO yOu >.< a brand new 2010 marks the end of 2009,lets put away all the worries that we have in 2009 and start life afresh in 2010!(:

WTH

2009-12-30T19:39:00.000-08:00

that day went gekpoh with mummy,when walk out,guess who i saw?! maurice lim.his existance made me stunned,i wonder if he did see me.dont noe why,seeing him make me feel like i doesnt have the hate in him anymore,i dont noe,really dont noe.i thought i have totally forgotten him but the moment i saw him,immediately,i noe i hadnt.
haish,nevermind.time would heal everything,soon u would fade from my mind and i hope that day would come as i really cannot tahan that kind of pain anymore.sorry for talking to u in that kind of attitude but i was really angry.anyways,wish u all the best with Catherine.takecares =D

JERK!!!

2009-12-26T19:51:00.000-08:00

WTH..actually today de mood not bad derhs but just now gt influenced by the greatese jerk in the world,make dao i now very angry,hope i could kill him immediately!!!!

another boring day....

2009-12-26T18:54:00.000-08:00

so sian,gonna move house soon.everyday,parents tell me go see furniture with them,so boring.aiya,i dont wan tell grandmother stry here,i myself write liao,also feel bored.
just about one more week jiu start sch liao,i dont know whether i'm happy or not.start sch jiu cnt like now like tat,so sin-nang,everyday do nth.ystd,daddy ald start to hint me,tell me go study my sec sch books,WTH,the moment i flip open the books,i felt sleepy,real sleepy!!!the math tb esp,so damn thick,thick dao i dunno whad to say sia!
hmmmmm,nth to post liao so byee~♥

WTH X(

2009-12-24T23:55:00.000-08:00

this morning,daddy go look through the things in my handphone,make me so damn angry sia.WTH,i also nth hide frm u,look through my things for what?!i very angry u noe?X( i hope that u would understand one day that,I DONT LIKE PEOPLE LOOKING THROUGH MY PERSONAL THINGS! @#$%^&^&*(

Queenway de uniform♥

2009-12-23T20:46:00.000-08:00

Nice bo♥hahahas:X their uniform very purple-ish.skirt purple,tie purple,PE also purple!!!♥

posted to QUEENSWAY♥

2009-12-23T20:40:00.000-08:00

today so damn sian at home but at least can post(:ystd went to Queensway sec report,wow,their principal is ex principal of HCI and a dunno-what Institution worhs.overall,that school quite not bad,at least better then what my mummy chose for the first and second choice,hees:Xceline and i had to part lo..so sad:( she chose Queensway as second choice but in the end,kana posted to first choice New Town,New Town de agg 217,she 216 jiu in liao,guess tat it is gonna be a tough 4years ahead for her,JIAYOUS CELINE♥

Bored

2009-12-13T03:30:00.000-08:00

at home so damn bored.i'm now hating someone to the core,hope he doesnt appear in my life anymore!!!u ight feel tat i'm nt the one u noe before,but i'm still who i am,i hate u FCUKER

Work>

2009-12-10T16:41:00.000-08:00

yay,finally can update.today reached le office almost late cos daddy before leave home keep dilly-dally,make dao i 7.40 den leave house,wth.but lucky i reached office at 7:59,1 more min jiu late lerhs,heng ah,hahas.today last day at work lerhs,kinda sad sia.at home damn bored derhs,best is at office,but yiyi go overseas,sians.
hmmmm,like nth to post lerhs.gonna go,byee~

work>

2009-12-08T17:08:00.000-08:00

reached office ald.working at yiyi de office is best or i wld say at least better den staying at home,haha.but the working hours are really damn LONG.its frm 8am to abt 5.30.overall quite fun lahrs>.< jus ans phone,do some things jiu can lerhs,hees(:cant talk much liao,later yiyi come liao,haas.i talking CRAP:x

overdue photos(:

2009-11-30T23:46:00.000-08:00

Results:x

2009-11-27T23:49:00.000-08:00

psle results came out lerhs,dunno shld b happi or sad sia.i didnt expect it to b oni 217 but at least qualify for express,i jiu hapy liao.dunno will post to which sec lei,hope its Queensway sec or maybe Queenstown or Henderson(:
Mummy recommand me go work at Yiyi's office den at least can earn some income so may start working on MON so...maybe wun post for a period of time.

Bugis(:

2009-11-27T23:38:00.000-08:00

Ystd went to Bugis.bought lots of things(:gotta say a BIG thank-you to mummy,hees(: daddy say i waste $$ but i dun think so o,:x.bought a dress,shirt,shorts and shoes,actually oso like nt alot of things hor,aiyo,i talking crap agn.actually still want buy another shirt derhs but walkwalk liao cnt find tat shop,hais.